Why do decisions hit so hard on emotions??

When was the last time you were forced to take a decision? You knew you had to take that decision but you just kept postponing it and suddenly the day comes where you jus can’t keep it pending anymore. There would have been times when you dint listen to friends or family who insisted you to take such a decision. You would have just said “yeah fine…Lets c...”…Does God think its high time you take that decision? Isn’t it so hard to do something like this? You are standing there trying to choose or decide between present happiness and future happiness. You are so unfortunate enough to not have them both. Its just one of them and you are told or rather forced to take it then and there. What would you do then? Would you forsake your present happiness or sacrifice future happiness? They say its now or never…They say live like there’s no tomorrow. But then does it all really apply in real life? And isn’t it even more worse when you know your decision is going to have a huge impact in someone else’s life also…or probably lives…How do you decide what’s it you want? How do you decide what to decide? When a decision itself involves decisions…To make things worser, you are caught in a situation where if you don’t make the right choice you are going to regret…badly…Why is current happiness always sweeter and more enjoyable than future happiness? Is it because current happiness is something that you are clearly experiencing? Is it because you are just unsure of future? If current happiness should keep you happy then why are you so confused and unhappy now? Does it indirectly mean you should choose future happiness? Why does confusion exist for heaven’s sake? It makes the already tough process even tougher or worser.How do you know you have taken the right decision? Why should certain decisions hit so hard on emotions?

She sits infront of the computer...staring intently..."Probably they should change the computer...Its pretty old....Why cant they use a flatron monitor atleast?"...She turns and finds her bottle,takes a sip of water and wonders why she cant drink lot of water...Her dad alwayz shouts at her for not drinkin water...She bites her nails nah nah the cuticles...Thats what she used to say to justify herself whenever her parents claimed she was biting nails...She realises she keeps shaking her legs and wonders if she has got some kinda nervous problem...She sits upright now...still staring the monitor...Her back has been hurting her pretty horribly...She makes a mental note to meet the doctor soon...She picks her mobile and makes a call...Strategically cuts it before he would pick it up and continues staring at the monitor..She could hear her colleague talkin or rather whispering some work-related stuff to another colleague..She looks at the clock in the task bar..."Its not yet 5..time left"...she nibbles on the skin on her lip and tilts her head to a side and thinks...She adjusts her duppatta and proceeds with her work...She breaks the knuckles in her fingers,something which she initially found quite irritating but later it turned into an habit...She takes a long breathe...She gets down to her usual bad posture..."Quite tough to sit upright for a long time now"...She looks at the chair where her boss sits..."He's not yet back...goody good!!"...She hears the door being opened...She pressed Alt+Tab and lo comes a word document related to office work..She turns around carefully and tries to look who has just entered her office..."Oh the xerox guy...Ada cha"...Her colleague's mobi starts ringing..."Has she planned to torture me?What was that ringtone now?"...The message tone of her mobile rings...She wonders if sumbody else thinks the same way about her message tone..."Hmmm...as if I care....okay yeah I do"...She hopes it would be some friend of hers...Vodafone promotional message...She mentally begins to say the f-word...but stops with "fu---".."Ahhh that sounds better than the word itself...and it gives you the same satisfaction of saying the word...Nice!!"....The peon crosses her and exclaims "Madam,aap tho time pass kar rahe ho"..."Yeah yeah as if i dint know that", she thinks...But turns around and smiles at him and says "nahi yaar"...And she gets back to her blog and continues with her post...

Now thats how I wrote this post....phew...Now you all know why it takes so much time for me to write a post...Let me tell ya guys...It aint east to write a post at office...Not at all...

Seri Seri puriyudhu...neenga enna solla vareenga nu puriyudhu...Office la ukkandhukittu office velaiya parkama blog eludhitta adu vera evlo kastam nu solriya..

Wat to do???

"The real learning begins when you start learning about people and emotions"

Long-lost friends

I dont know why exactly I decided to write on this...

During my school days,we had to shift every two years or so coz dad was in a transfer job.Therefore I had met quite a lot of people.I got along with most of them,had lotsa fun with many and made friends with few.All that I would like to write about today are about the friends I had made.There are friends who I'm still in touch with,friends who I just know about and friends who are just lost...

Somehow this whole concept intrigues me a lot...

My kindergarden days were one of the best times of my life.I was good at almost everything and used to be this kid whom everyone loved.I had lots of friends but somehow I dont remember all of them except for one...R.Saravanakumar...He used to be as good as I was and we were really good friends...I used to like him a lot and I still remember the day I had blasted him for getting me caught for something I dint do...I dunno how but somehow even as a kid,I valued friendships quite a lot and I got mad at this guy for doing this to me...It all seems so silly to me now but as a kid,I stopped talking to that guy after this incident...Another friend of mine was Nivitha..She was one year elder to me and she was my neighbor...She was my play-mate and I spent more time with her than I did at home..When we had to shift to some other place,I still remember her sobbing so much..I was fortunate enough to meet her once again in my life,when I was in fifth grade but then...for nivi the memories prevailed but not the bond and for me the bond prevailed but not the memories...

My second grade was at Andhra Pradesh and it was the worst time of my life...I hated the school and my class-mates...Most of them were such difficult and bossy people and it was just so hard...But when I joined the school,I got a friend...Her name was yamini..She spoke tamil and tat was all that was needed to form our bond...I loved being with her and life went amazing with her...But I wasnt really lucky enough coz she had to leave the school..I was so sure my life was goin to be hell again but thats when sravya came along to prove it wrong..My school was like miles away from from my home and so I had to go by auto..She was my auto-mate but unfortunately she was not my class-mate...The auto journey was for 45 min or so and I used to love it so much...Those 45 min to and fro were the only times I spent with her and I looked forward to it every single day...Those 90 min everyday was enough for us to cement our friendship...When I had to shift from AP,I remember her comin to my home...She came along with her mom and gave me a gift...It was a flower vase that sang a tune of "happy birthday" when u touch a certain flower or so...My neighbor's kids had come arnd that time and so I was busy playing with them...Poor gal..She kept waiting for me and finally she left...I never saw her after that...But somehow I kept feelin that the flower vase's tune sounded like it was sung to me..

My fourth grade and fifth grade were once again the best times of my life..We were a group of five gals..Me,Vinupriya,Anitha,Lavanya and Divya...Lavanya and Divya weren really that close and so it was jus me,vinu and anitha...I was like the gang leader and we had so much fun together...I tried staying in touch with Vinupriya even after I left the school...Anitha jus disappeared all of a sudden...I still wonder what happened to her...She stopped coming to school in the last few months of our fifth grade...We kept waiting for her to turn up and finally,I decided I should pay her a visit...I still remember where she stayed...Thayumanavar street,Vellore...There was no one at her house...They had left it seems...I still imagined she'll turn upto school one day but alas,she never did...I still keep wondering what happened to her...Ani shared a very special bond with me and I just couldnt take it when the bond broke up all of a sudden...

Sixth and Seventh grade-Voah,I still call those days as the best days of ma school life...The best!!!Yeah...I had friends everywhere-School,class and in the park near my home...Me and my fren preshmitha...how much we used to fight with the guys,the troubles we used to cause,the oh-so-silly probs we had...Man...We were a group of four gals-Me,Shriveena,Mridula and Preshmitha...The funny part was before I joined the school Preshmi and Veena were like the inseparables,best of friends and they were infact named "Shri-tha"....Once I joined,I dunno how but things took a change and me and preshmi ended up being great friends while Mridula and Veena mingled up...Me and preshmi rocked those days fighting with the Rakesh gang...I still cant forget Ajay,Rohit and Rakesh-Three dare-devils they were...I'm still in touch with Preshmi...Veena,Ajay and Rohit-I do have an idea of what they're upto but Mridula and Rakesh -I last heard about them some two yrs back...I have no idea what they've been doing...

Eighth grade-I was there at this school for just an yr...It did take me quite some tym to get along with people..In all the schools I had studied,guys and gals used to be such good friends...But this was one school where guys and gals hated each other...I barely remember some of the guys there and in the one yr I had studied there,I had never been to the guys' row ever...All my friends were gals and there were quite a many of dem-Suganya,Ambigai,Maria Jeniffer,Preethi,Ramani,Swetha,-Sadly I'm not in touch with any of them now...I did hear from Ambika some tym back but we couldn remain in touch...

Ninth and Tenth grade-New place,New culture,New ppl...Everythin was new...I dint like it...Life seemed like hell to me..It was like as if God was telling me-"Well you enjoyed so much na..Now you start suffering...."Every day was a huge task for me...God wasn that mean too and wel there were few helpful souls arnd-Vruti,Hitakshi,Divya and Madhuri...Vruti left school in ninth grade...It was so hard to bid her goodbye...It more or less seemed like the situation I was in when I was doing my second grade...I tried to move on with life and life did bring some positive changes in the form of the tuts gang-Niyati and her frens...They were in the other section but we all went for the same tuts...I finally started laughin and learnt to enjoy life...I'm still in touch wid Divya and Hitakshi and I pretty much know what others are upto...I'm ever thankful to them....One more person worth mentioning is Niku...Niku was ma onlyn fren...And yeah I knew how great it was to have an onlyn fren after being wid Niku...Friend,Listener,Philosopher,Advisor and everythin-Niku was one in all..I just know what's Niku been upto..but we couldn sustain our bond...

Eleventh and Twelfth grade-Voah,I can write an entire blog on them....But since ma topic is about ma long lost frens,I dont think they come into the picture....I'm pretty mcuh in touch wid all of them...

Well...as I had previously mentioned,I really dunno why I started writing this post...I would love to meet ma old frens sometym...Yeah,I dunno if I wud be able to keep in constant touch with them but I can assure them that I can never ever forget them..And I guess I should let them know that they were indeed the reason for my happiness at sum point in ma lyf..And even if they aren with me now,the very memories with them still keep me happy...I love you all!!!

*Me reminiscing*

Those wonderful days....

Few signs to show how much one misses their school life

You know you miss your school life when:

1)You start visiting your junior's album's in orkut and facebook in the months of february-may to just go back to your memory lane using their pictures of their school memories...

2)You still store you school uniform and gently touch and feel your school days-each thread in your uniform speaking of volumes of your good times-When the intitially-most-booed-uniform turns out into the most-preciously-guarded-possession

3)Your secret cup-board is filled up of little notes written by your friends passed arnd during classes

4)You google search about your school hoping to find somebody writin a blog abt it or sharing a picture or for some alumni site

5)You look at a picture of you with your school friends and silently praying that all of you remain together forever.

6)You feel so happy when someone talks about your school and you could actually understand what they say and even relate to it

7)You cant bear to hear any wrong remarks about your school when you very well know that you yourself did the very same thing once upon a time

8)You look at your school and exclaim-"How much it has changed over the years"-like how grandparents look at their grandchildren and exclaim-"How tall you have grown"

9)You get excited in even seeing your school bathroom

10)You just cant believe others dont miss their school and you actually wonder why people dont understand when you miss yours...

11)You become so crazy and start thinking "Probably even I should start a school and there'll be alumni's meet every sunday and....."

12)You plan so sincerely about constructing a huge bungalow for you and all your friends to live together

13)In a row with your parents,be it any issue,you start cribbing about your wonderful school days

14)You think about your school days and start smiling all of a sudden for no reason

15)You are amidst writing a post abt ur school life and you start thinkin of writing a entire blog on it

Last but not least,when you keep going on with your present life(however disastrous it is)by just deriving the strength from your school times...

*I miss ma school life too much*:`(

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The look in her eyes made his heart leap...

He never expected her to do this to him...How could she do it to him??Though she occasionally complained about him,he thought it was jus the usual problem everybody faced...He never expected it to create such an impact...

They had met three years back..She looked arnd and she saw him..The look in her eyes made his heart leap...Their initial days were so much fun...Khushi was her name and she seemed khushi about him...She was alwayz excited about him and he felt the same way towards her,although he couldn express it...She proudly held him in her arms,when she was with her frens...She had given him many nicknames...She cared about him so much...He remembered the day when her smiling cute face turned so sad when he jus had a minor scratch...He remembered those initial days,when she tried matchin her clothes to his...They were alwayz seen together that ppl started callin them the "Inseparables"...But now,things took a dramatic change...

Three years...How could she?Dint closeness strengthen a relationship??How could she think of someone else even after being with him all these years??Yes he wasn as young as she was or neither was he as tech-updated as she was..But still,wil she able to show the same love and care that she did towards someone else??Questions kept croppin up in his mind but he was too shocked to even address them to her..He loved her so much that he dint wanna hurt her...He decided...let her do what she wants..my love towards her will never change!!!Never ever!!!

He saw her tat day...Tat was the last day he would probably see her...She seemed more excited than before...He felt sad...He was even more hurt by the fact that she had no idea how much traumatic this whole experience was for him..Lookin at her so excited,he wondered if she sincerely loved him..Was it jus a crush??Suddenly he heard a shriek of joy...He looked at her...And there she was jumpin up n down,seeing her new "him"...He looked much better than him..He seemed more smarter and tech-updated..He seemed right for her...She went near her new "him" and took him by her arms...He saw them leavin together...

She... leaving... him...

Girl:Excuse me...I'm lookin for...

Guy:Yes madam...I know what you are looking for..This is Nokia 1100..Since its a second hand,we are givin it off at a very decent rate,madam..It has got messaging,games,call waiting,etc....Its in a perfectly working condition and I'm sure this will fit in your budget...

The look in her eyes made his heart leap...

He says-"Take me away...na na naa na na..."

Khushi says-Mom,I love this mobile...Do you know what I've nicknamed my new mobile??-"Shark"

Inspired by my Dearest Ashy who loves her mobile so much!!!
And yeah Happy Birthday,Ashy!!!